I hadn’t watched Oprah in a while and ended up watching today. As usual, I cried. The stories on her show today were amazing. Especially the story about the mother dying of cancer that recorded and taped messages for her daughter. Messages that compiled everything she wanted her to know throughout life. I remember watching the show many years ago and today they had the daughter on the show. What a beautiful young lady she’s turned into. Tear jerker. And so inspiring.
Of course, it got me thinking.
Made me realize I need to enjoy life more.
Live each day like it’s your last.
But, I feel like this happens to me a lot. Something happens that make me realize just how fragile life is. I hear a story that makes realize I can’t take anything for granted. I make a plan to not sweat the small stuff. Slow down and enjoy things more. But, this doesn’t last long. Before I know it, I’m back to the crazy go go go of life. Back to worrying about things our of my control.
This is my life. My one shot to make it the absolute best it can be. And I want to. I want to wake up each morning eager for work, stay in a great mood all day, smile all day long, tell everyone how much they mean to me, make a difference in the world…..every day. But, sometimes it is so hard. Sometimes I wake up in a great mood, with every intention to make the day the best. With a head full of things I want to do and ready to make it happen. Then fast forward a few hours. Things didn’t go at all how I wanted them to. Someone did something, something happened, things went wrong, etc. I end up frustrated. Then feel like I didn’t do good enough. Lately, I feel this way more than I think I should (M-F).
I know this is part of life.
Not everyday is perfect.
I know that each day is what I make it.
I can’t control what is going on around me or what others say and do.
What I can control is how I react to it and what I do about it.
I get this. But, it’s so much easier said than done. So much easier.
This sums up my day today. Started my day in a great mood with the best of intentions. Something happened. I let it get to me. I was stressed all day and ended up with a horrible migraine. Didn’t workout when I got home. Ordered take out b/c I didn’t feel like cooking. Consumed more calories than I should in a day. Now it’s over. I can’t get the day back. I’m kicking myself for letting things spiral. But it happens.
I am thankful for a fresh start tomorrow. I know I need to make some changes. Some things happened recently that have given me a reason to change. I’m going to make a more conscious effort to live what I believe. I don’t know what tomorrow holds. But I know who holds tomorrow.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.” Proverbs 3:5-60 Did you like this post?