Today is my last day as a 27 year old.
Tomorrow is my 28th birthday and it couldn’t come fast enough.
I’m so ready for 27 to be gone. This year has been one for the record books. Definitely the hardest year of my life thus far. I’m ready to put a lid on it and seal it up forever. Even though we’ve/ I’ve been to hell and back this year, I haven’t lost sight of the positives. I experienced two of the happiest and most exciting days of my life this year. I’m so very thankful for that. My big lesson this past year was that you can’t plan for everything. I’ve always known this but I am a planner. I like to have control of things and if something is broken, I want to be the one to make it better. I couldn’t do that this year. I couldn’t change the things that happened and they couldn’t be fixed. After some time passed this year, when things were more clear- I finally got it. This was His big lesson for me. I needed this lesson in life. I needed to learn that no matter how much you want something, no matter how much you’ve planned for something, it’s all on His time. I’m not the one in control, I’m just along for the ride.
I learned a lot about myself this year. I learned I am a lot stronger then I ever thought I could be. At the same time, I learned that it’s okay to have to lean on others and how amazing my support system is. I learned to appreciate all of the positives in life, even when there are negative things happening. I’ve always known I have an unbelievable man as my husband. But, this year he showed me just how wonderful he is as we made it through this year together. In the mist of everything that was going on, I was able to see how blessed I truly am.
Today, I can honestly say that I would not change this year. But, I’m glad this year has come to an end. Tomorrow is not only my birthday, it’s a new leg of the journey for me/us. I don’t know what it will bring. But, I am ready for it. And with the love and support of our close friends and family we will take it on. I know years down the line, I will be able to help other women who experience what I have gone through. I know years down the line when I’m sitting there looking at my precious family, I’ll be glad I never gave up. I know that there are a lot of good things in store for our future because I have not lost faith.
With that said, I’m going to leave you with some of the quotes that helped me this year…