During this time I realized I had changed, for the better. Because of this journey, I’ve become a better wife, daughter, sister, friend, teacher and person. I would never take back what we’ve/ I’ve been through. Never. I would never have the outlook I do today without this experience in my life. And I knew that one day, I’d be able to share my experience to help others. No matter what happens in the future, I know my faith will keep me going. We have no control what happens to us in life but we do have control in what we believe, how we choose to overcome the hard times and how we choose to live each day.
Over the past year, there have been many times I questioned my faith. I was born and raised Catholic, with a belief in God, a belief that everything happens for a reason and that He has a greater plan for my life. But, when things don’t go the way you’ve planned or hoped or prayed for, it’s easy to lose faith. It’s easy to let the negative thoughts and feelings take over and it’s hard to get those thoughts and feelings out of your head. But as easy as it is to lose faith for a moment or a long while, it’s just as easy to find it again.
I’ve questioned my faith more than I’d like to admit over the past year. At the beginning of our journey to start a family I didn’t understand why things happened they way they did to me or us. If it was something I had been wanting so bad for so long, why did it have to be taken away? This was one of my biggest struggles. No matter what encouraging words I heard, I couldn’t get this out of my head. I just didn’t understand. It took about three months for me to get back to my “normal” self. I found peace. Ready to get back on the saddle and move forward. Then it happened all over again. I expected to go back into the hole that I found myself in originally. But that didn’t happen. During the three months I was healing the first time, I found something I had lost, my faith. With all my heart I believe that God will not give you anything you can’t handle. I knew I was strong enough to handle it and grow from it. I found the positive in a hard and sad situation. I knew that if I couldn’t move forward, I would never be able to fully see what God had in store for me. I 100% believed that one day, no matter what it took, we would have the family we had longed for.
There are many of you that follow my blog that are longing for what I longed for and going through some of the things I’ve been through. I wrote this post with you in mind. Sometimes the perfect quote can give you hope and renewed faith.
Here are some of the quotes that I found comfort in, I hope you’ll be able to as well.