Dear Sweet Baby Girl,
I’ve been writing this letter over and over in my head since the day you were born. I have so much to say to you, yet it’s been hard to find the words. I’ve wanted to be a mom from as young as I cam remember. I started practicing with my baby dolls when I was a toddler and never stopped. Every job I had involved being around kids. Babysitting, children’s clothing, teaching pre-school, being a nanny and of course, my career as a teacher. When people asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up, I would reply with “a mom and a teacher”. Mom first.
My road to motherhood wasn’t one I would have imagined. It was a longer journey with bumps along the way. But, I would change one thing about the journey. Because everything in that journey lead me to you.
From the minute I heard your sweet cry and saw your beautiful face, my life changed. The love that I have for your is indescribable. Now I understand the saying- You don’t know a love like a mother has for her child, until you experience it yourself. I don’t have enough words or time to begin to describe my love for you. Love. You are the light and love of so many lives. Your daddy and me, your nana and papa, your grandmas and grandpas and all your aunts and uncles. I can promise you that you will always be surrounded by love. Always.
Just before four weeks old, we caught your first smile. You haven’t stopped smiling since. The feeling I had the moment I saw your first smile is what I feel day in and out. Joy, so much joy. I find myself just staring at you in awe. Wondering what I did to ever deserve something so perfect. Your face. Your bright eyes and gorgeous lashes. Your smile that lights up the room. Your feet that you’ve started to grow into. Your chubby rolls. Your sweet cheeks. Your hands that wrap perfectly around my fingers. Your personality that flourishes each and everyday. I can’t stop covering you with kisses. I can’t stop snuggling you in my arms. I can’t get enough of you, my sweet girl.
Everyday is a gift with you. I go to bed watching you on the monitor, wondering what you’re dreaming about. I wake up eager to see your sweet smile. Seeing life through your eyes is like I’m living it for the first time. My life is forever changed now that you are in it. I want to be the absolute best person, wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend and so on, for you. To set a good example for you.
I pray for your health and happiness every night. I hope that you follow your dreams and aren’t afraid to color outside the lines. As much as I can wait for you to grow up, I can’t wait to witness each milestone and for you to begin to accomplish your goals. I’ll be there holding your hand every step of the way, ready to catch you if you fall. I hope that you get everything out of this beautiful life that you want and deserve.
I love you to the moon and back, forever and always.