Lately, I have.
Especially when it comes to the ins and outs of daily life.
But the truth is, that is life.
I can be so hard on myself sometimes.
Getting frustrated that I have so much that is not done, things I didn’t accomplish.
Lately, instead of getting down on myself for not “doing it all”, I’ve changed my outlook.
I’ve decided to look at the things I was able to do and things I did accomplish.
Things that may not have been on my to do list.
Things that seem so little but in the grand scheme of things make all the difference in the world.
Things like reading books with my baby girl.
Or going and sitting on the porch watching the rain fall.
Pulling AG around on her little train, saying chug a chug a choo choo until my throat hurts as she laughs away.
Cooking a nice dinner instead of finishing an order because hubs deserves it after a long day at work.
So we can all sit together as a family and talk about our days.
It’s those moments that are going to be instilled in my heart forever.
Tomorrow, next week, next month, even next year…
I won’t be thinking about the laundry that wasn’t done.
I won’t be thinking about the dishwasher that is full and needs to be emptied.
I won’t be thinking about the three little things on my to do list that I wasn’t able to cross off today.
As women and especially as mothers, I think we feel the need to do it all. Sometimes that need sets us up for failure. There are only 24 hours in a day. You can’t get any more. You can’t hit the pause button. So think about what has to be done and what can wait until tomorrow. Think about how you can get the most out of your day, while still enjoying it. Put yourself and your well being first.
And next time you get down on yourself for not getting everything done that you wanted, think about all you were able to accomplish. Think about the little moments that matter the most.
It’s not the load that breaks you down, it’s the way you carry it.