Before we got pregnant (time #3 with AG) I finally started to feel like myself again. I stopped having a pity party and decided to take my happiness back into my hands. Everything I did, thought, looked up, dreamed of had to do with getting pregnant and having a baby. I stopped living my life. I knew it wasn’t good for my wellbeing and my marriage. So as hard as it was, I made a conscious effort to do something for myself each day. I set goals of things to accomplish and worked towards them. Some were health and fitness, some were craft projects, some was meal planning and trying new recipes. I read books and lots of blogs. I kept myself as busy as I could and in the end it relaxed me and made me feel better about myself.
But, they were right.
When you think about “what if I will never have a baby”. Think, God will give me a child because he knows how wonderful of a mom I will be. You may have twins right off the bat! I didn’t want to hear it. I didn’t want to believe there was a greater plan, but I’m living it. The things that are worth the most can be the hardest to reach. But, think about the long term, these two years or three will one day be a wrinkle in time. I wouldn’t go back and change what happened to me but there are things I wish I had done differently.